Right now we are finding out if it is a boy or a girl. Right this second. I’m writing this from the past to be posted in the future. Posted on the day, on the hour, that we find out who this is. Is it one name, or the other? Is it a for sure close up shop we are all done here option, or is it holy shit we’re leaving the door open for more because I can’t fathom my life without a daughter?
I’ve been racked with anxiety about this day, the day when it becomes almost officially official (Barring any surprises at delivery!), for weeks. And I know you could say, “But you’ll love them either way and it will be amazing and magical either way and your family will (probably) be complete either way!” and that is all true. And what else is true is that it doesn’t change how much it matters to me. One way or another. A fork in the road. What will we do with the information provided? Where will we go from here?
Right now, from where I’m sitting in the past, I don’t know. What am I going to do with the information I get? I guess, just like you guys, I’ll just have to wait and see.