I started to write a big post about all of the feels I have about being back home in Seattle. And it was really cliche. “Time goes by so fast and yet so slow!” “I love it here, but I also miss it there!” etc.
Kamel kept asking me if I was going to do a post about this anniversary. I didn’t know if I was going to. And then the anniversary came and went. I’m 3 days late calling it out because life is happening. Living is happening. It’s the holidays! So much to be done! We really haven’t even had time to pause and toast to our root setting. The setting of our roots.
(First full day in Seattle)
There were times a year + ago that I never thought we would EVER move to Seattle. That we would be trapped in the Bay Area with the soaring house prices and expensive everything and the insane commutes and life feeling so so so HARD all of the time. Kamel loved his job, loved it. We loved our close friends, we loved our little home and the little worlds we built. But it always felt like one misstep and we’d be shit out of luck. One more rent hike, one more child, a lay off, an extra bill, and we’d be kapoot. We had no support system, we had no community for Gabe, we had no ability to expand our family or our lives.
There were times where I felt absolutely trapped.
But just like anything, with some patience and perseverance, and really dedicating ourselves to the cause we made it happen. And I am grateful every single day that we did. Even with the bumpy transitions, even with readjusting to different work experiences, the hunt for a new daycare, digging ourselves out of credit card debt from our 439683049 moves in 3 years, and on and on. NOW I feel free. Now I can see 5 years down the line of stability. Now I know which school I want Gabe to go to, I can see summer barbecues in a backyard somewhere during the summers, and the ability to travel less for necessity and more for fun.
(First snow for baby, 316 days ago)
In the words of Kamel, “Only good things came from moving to Seattle.” And it is so true. And every single day I am so so grateful to be here.
(Almost a Year in Seattle)