So the year is half over. I really can’t believe June is done. JUNE IS DONE? The longest day of the year has come and gone? What? How did that happen? Wasn’t everyone JUST complaining about snow? Where am I? Who are you again?
Anyways, so the year is half gone. Poof. And I’ve been thinking about the goals I’ve set for myself for this year and I really couldn’t remember what they were. So yesterday I went back and read through the post where I talked about that.
Past me is sometimes so smart! Do you ever feel that? Past me is super smart. Thank you past me for knowing exactly what I needed, thank you thank you thank you for setting me on a path where I can kind of figure some stuff out, have room to grow, have the room to have some fun, to do some work, to buckle down, etc. Way to go past me, high-five.
I am constantly feeling torn between pushing myself to do more and needing to take a break. I think that is the conflict of LIFE, but it is also a very common conflict with creating. When do I take a minute to wander and think and feel? When do I tell myself to suck it up and push harder, write more, burn the candle at both ends?
Right now I am in a frenzied space. I want to say yes to all of the things, I want to chase every opportunity. With writing I feel like it is so undervalued that with every offer there is a threat of it being the really important one and also the hope of it being the really important one. So I write and I chase and I hope that something gets picked up and spread around and then more eyeballs see my name and maybe seek out more of my work and it’s all very grass-roots up in here. It’s all very scrappy.
But it’s also incredibly exhausting and I would be fooling myself if I didn’t acknowledge the need for breaks sometimes. I’m really looking forward to this 3 day weekend. I need a little reset. I need a little wander and walk and think and quiet.
How has your 1/2 the year been? How are things going for you? If you’re in the US what are you doing for this beloved long weekend? Tell me where you’re at. I need a little grounding.