Things here are slowly getting back to how they were before pregnancy… but also not. There is a new normal forming, the kind that has nothing to do with feeling sick or being exhausted. It has to do with having a new human in my life every single moment of the day, but it also doesn’t.
I am trying really hard to not make this blog a mom-only blog. There are so many of you who don’t even want kids and call me crazy but I want you to still feel like this is a place where you can hang out. And also – I feel like sinking into all things mom and baby, and only things mom and baby, would be too easy. It is currently all that my days are focused on (sort of), so it’s currently all I can think to write about (mostly), but where is the challenge in that?
So, beyond baby Gabe things here are feeling better and better as I emerge from pregnancy land. Two days ago I finally ordered the majority of books from my last book list. Yes, that list was made in August. No, I didn’t actually buy any of the books that we talked about. I was way too tired and way too motion sick on the train to do anything but grit my teeth (and then eventually I gave up on the train altogether and took to dry heaving on the side of the freeway while Kamel attempted to drive me to work). But now! In a few weeks! I will be beginning my old routine again and will be devouring those books (don’t worry, Maris, World War Z will be up first!) methodically and writing reviews/discussion of them. Hooray!! When i think about commuting alone on the train every day I actually get a rush of excitement. Time! To sit! Quietly! Anonymously! Without anyone poking at me or crying or needing something! Sweet sweet heaven.
Oh, and if I haven’t gotten back to your email, or returned your phone call or text – I am so sorry. I spend the majority of my day with only 1 free hand and when the baby is sleeping I take the opportunity to get some business done, run a load of laundry over to the laundry room, jump into a quick work out, etc etc. What I don’t do is sleep – even though that’s what everyone tells you to do. If I did that the house would fall into ruin, you would never ever hear from me, and I would live in a haze of naps and sore nipples. It is a scramble and a race against the clock when I do get the chance to do something without being strapped to baby, but I’m working on getting back to people! And I actually have true guilt multiple times a day over my lapse in responding.
I tried on my pre-pregnancy jeans and wow, it was a little sobering. It’s only been a month so I’m not overly concerned, but those puppies didn’t zip or button. Not even close. I did get them up over my butt and thighs though – so tiny victories. Thank you to the twitter ladies for giving me tips on future mom (but not mom) jeans. I’ll be doing another body check-in soon – I just need more time than I have to formulate that post, plus my thoughts (which are a little more conflicted than previously… spoiler alert).
In the near future I am very much looking forward to more Fooding With Flo, book reviews (ee!), the new addition of the Mom Files, and more Adventure-ing from me (and from you!… if you have any adventures you’d like to share please please email me!). It’s baby steps into this new life that looks so much like the old life with a few extra twists here and there, but I’m on the road.