My brain is all a hubub and it’s messing up my days… and nights. I can’t sleep! It’s been weeks now, with maybe only 1 day per 7 where I really feel rested. The rest of the time I’m waking up at 2 or 3 in the
morning night from bad dreams or stomach aches or just waking up for no good reason at all except to lay there and wish for sleep. I’m clenching my teeth and fidgeting. Kamel, on the other hand, snoozes on. Snoring in my ear or flopping around like it ain’t no thing. He’s the worst with his uninterrupted slumber.
Last night it was too hot at first. So we ditched the comforter and opened the windows. Then what happened? Of course it got cold, so I poked Kamel awake (but he really didn’t seem to mind) and he closed the windows and got the comforter again. He, very shortly, began snoozing again. I just laid there, trying not to clench my teeth, worrying about my dental future. When I did drop off, I woke up again from bad dreams, sweaty and uncomfortable, with a Kamely squishing me against the wall. I blame him for all my discomforts.
He says it’s because my schedule is shifting, and it is shifting – but more on that later. He says that the thing a Lauren loves the most is a routine and when that routine is messed with a Lauren isn’t happy. Maybe this is true, but right now I’m just eye-watery and full of yawns with no time for naps and a long day ahead. Can I get a communal grumble? I’m going to go try and be a functional human.