So we’re on day 3 of working from home. (Wahhoo!) Some of you have said I’m self-employed (and maybe I even did once before… you never can be sure), but I actually still have a boss (Meg, of A Practical Wedding). But the good part about not having an office I’m required to be at, is now I can focus better mental energy on my job, AND I have much more time to focus on other projects and getting paid for writing more words. Those are the goals. Oh! And to have a better quality of life.
Because you know what my quality of life was for the last year? Shit. I mean, not living out of my car shit, but not good. Like 530 am wake ups that involved working (and working out, that’s the silver lining) and then a long commute, where I got to work at a job that was fine and stressed about getting everything on my to do list for AFTER work completed, trying to multi task while at work and feeling stressed about that, a long commute back home, where I made dinner, ate dinner while visiting with Kamel, then worked, usually until sleep time. Or I caught up on chores, or both. I shoved my day full of so many HAVE TOs that I almost never had time for the want tos. And when I did the want tos I felt guilty about them, or it was squeezed between other things and that made it feel more like a fun, guilt-ridden obligation.
I had virtually no evenings, and if something unexpected happened, or too many social events occurred, I was left scrambling, exhausted, totally mind fucked, because my days were scheduled so tightly they couldn’t accommodate life.
So, way back in Jan. I realized I needed to make a choice. I had to choose a path and stick with it. The path that life was pushing me towards, the path with the most opportunity and the least amount of shoving open doors that maybe weren’t ready to be opened, was this one. This path where I work to write, I write to work. I’m not exactly sure how it’s all going to work out quite yet, but I’m getting there.
And so far working from home is kind of exhausting. It takes a lot more mental energy than I anticipated. You have to be incredibly self motivated. I’ve made lots of To – Do lists, I’ve done a lot more walking around. Sometimes I’ve allowed myself to put something off for an hour while I chat with my best friends on the internet, sometimes I get to read. But here is what I’m not doing: Wasting the day watching hours of TV, staying in my pajamas past the morning, staying locked up in the house. I am not doing any of those three things and for my first three days that deserves a pat on the back. Because I was really worried that’s what would happen to me. I worried that I would, at the beginning, treat it like vacation days, or sick days, and not work days. And I would just like to report back, that I haven’t. I have used my time well, I have accomplished lots and lots in a day, more in one day working from home than I have ever accomplished not working from home. And now I get evenings… which, to be honest, feels kind of weird. I feel like I should be doing something, like I’m forgetting to do something, my brain constantly nagging at me to re-think my day, what is missing? It’s a little jarring to go from one pretty extreme work existence, to a normal one. So, I’m still working out the kinks.
Until after the wedding I’m not searching for more work, I’m just soaking in the work I’ve been unable to get to because there aren’t enough hours in the day + wedding crunch time. But if you have freelance tips, places to go to look for work, places to submit work to, a friend of a friend who works at such n’such that needs writers, please let me know. Christina has already shot me some info (much appreciated!!) and I’ll be applying and sifting through options come August for sure. It’s a new adventure, but so far things are looking up!