Last year on this day I was walking the golden gate bridge(for the first time) with my parents. It was a beautifully clear, stunningly bright day.

My mom kept leaning over the edge, feeling the bridge give and wiggle with the weight and movement of the cars, the wind, the earth, and saying, “Feel that? You feel that in your loins! This is living!”

This year I spent the afternoon at candy land.

Ghirardelli square, actually. But pretty much the same thing. The land of chocolate, caramel, and ice cream wonder. After 40+ days of no sugar – no baked goods, candy, fruit drinks, nada – I came to binge on one thing only:

A giant chocolate chip cookie!! The last time I had one I had just driven down to SF for the first time ever and Maris and I were running around the wharf like silly tourists.

I couldn’t finish it then either. This thing is DENSE. And that’s as far as I got before feeling completely overwhelmed. And then I put it back into it’s bag and threw it away. It turns out I really like not being addicted to sugar. I still crave it, I’m not going to lie. Especially when I’m having a bad day, or am particularly stressed. But it doesn’t occupy my thoughts every single day like it used to. And it doesn’t torture me not to finish something sweet anymore. Although I will fully enjoy candy at movies, birthday cake, and special occasion desserts, I won’t be sitting in bed eating boxes of candy from walgreens, or buying those individual cakes at safeway + a diet coke and going at it with a fork. Yes, I know – FATTY. πŸ™‚

Right now I’m hiding from the rain with Kamel, roasting potatoes, garlic, and squash. The grated parm is ready for sprinkling and the baguette is perfectly sliced. I’m watching one of my favorite heist movies of all time (The Italian Job) and dreading work tomorrow. It’s been a great weekend and a great Easter.

Hope you found lots of goodies hunting eggs!

3 thoughts on “Easter”

  1. This post made me want to eat my laptop. Fortunately there's a Ghirardelli in Chicago so maybe one day I'll swing by and see what they have to offer. Thanks for the tip, Lauren!

  2. dear lauren,
    i'm not a stalker but i have been keeping up with your blogs and have to say that:
    1. your mom seems just LOVELY. had to put that out there.
    2. yey for easter! i binged more than i would have liked but i still feel the same satisfaction at not being so addicted to sweets anymore either. wooohoo!
    3. your blogs truly put me in the best moods. they motivate me to be as simply happy as you seem to be! so thank you πŸ™‚


  3. Thank you Meli!! I don't think you're a stalker at all! I love that you read my blog! How fun. πŸ™‚ I'm glad it makes you happy. I love feedback – you just made my whole day.

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